Reflection:
This is the time in the semester that the pressure is at its
highest. The fact that almost all my assignment are due at the same time and
all will make or break my semester. When I sat down to write this blog there
was many options; writing about cooperative groups, the summative, the raft. The
problem was I did not know where to begin with any of them. I understand cooperative
groups and the role they play in the classroom. The fact that just grouping
students together does not make it a cooperative group. I could even write
about how much fun the making squares activity was. The problem I found was the
blog was going nowhere. It did not push me to really think about something I
was unsure. The raft on the other hand was a scary assignment until I came up
with the idea. Now I feel so much better about it because I know the topic and
where I want to go. So that topic would not produce a blog with much meaning. Now
the summative assignment has me on edge because I hate self-evaluation. There I
have said it, I Hate to evaluate myself. This create an issue with the
summative assessment but more of an issue with my future career. If I cannot self-evaluate
comfortably how can I improve my practices. How am I going to make sure that my
lessons are being fixed because I looked back and realized things did not work?
I know that this is the biggest part of the class, the self-reflection on my
work and how I can improve. This has always been hard for me because in some
places I feel that I did everything I could. However, someone else comes in and
tells me that I could have done better. Now I always feel that there is always something
I could do better and are over critical to the point that I sometimes feel inadequate
about my work. I am not sure if I am alone with this feeling or not. Whether
others start to feel that nothing could be good enough and so in some ways you
give up or revert to your comfort zone. Overall, I guess my blog this week is
about how can a person self-evaluate with enough confidence that they did not
do everything wrong?
Jodi i totally agree with you I also hate self evaluations. I never know if I'm doing them right. Should I say I did extremely well because it would show confidence in my work or should I grade my self lower, it might be more honest of a reflection but what if I convince the teacher that I didn't do good work when they thought that i did before reading my reflection? I am also hard on myself when I read my own work I have written papers and felt that they were B work but gotten A's on them, does that mean I'm not a really good judge of my own work? You won't be alone struggling with the assessment for the end of this class.
ReplyDeleteI admire your honesty! I think the biggest point of advice that I could give you is that self-evaluating is a method that needs to be practiced. I will agree and say that I am not comfortable with self-evaluating my assignments or papers that I hand in (like you said, I feel like I did my best when the assignment has been turned in) but I find it easier to evaluate myself after a presentation or after teaching a lesson. By the audience and the way it felt, I can easily decided what was done great and what could I have improved. I try to focus on experiences when I self-evaluate. Often, things don't always go as planned, so what worked and what didn't work? In my first lesson, the teacher had ten minutes of announcements to make before I could start, this resulted in me cutting the exit slip I had planned. Looking back, I wish that I had passed out materials during the teacher's announcements and cut time somewhere else, so I could keep the exit slip. Just think... "If I were to do this again, what would I change?"
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